iMpatIence...

tOdae i was on the phone with her.. as usual, was trying to find out how she is egtting.. any progression from her wound and her feeling... wEll i realli dunno am i doin it right to ask her all these kinda question... but i jus wanna ask her becos i was concern abt her injuries.. been kinda long.. hEr reply was still the same.. "ok lor.. still the sme.. wat else u wan mi to say.. nothing new mahz..." she still is very impatient talkin to mi.. i realli dunno y is this so.. sIghz..

I'm tryin my best to make the best tone out of me and ask her nicely "am i making her feelin pissed?" or "is there anything i can do to make u happier then now??" what can i realli do to make her feels better then now? how tO let her talk to mi in a nicer tone.. and also i was trying to bring the topic away from her about stayin at my plc overnite which i nv bring up.. Guess wats the answer... "wEll i wanna go back home before 9.30pm okie.. cos i wanna go back home and watch the channel U show.. dun wanna bother u till so late. i dun wan to stay at ya plc for so long." at this moment, my heart jus sank even deeper.. she cares more abt the show rather then accompanying mi... It has been nearly a week that we had never meet up or so.. i was jus so eager to meet her tml and that the reply i got.. actualli wanan gif her a surprise tml in the early afternoon one.. but i am realli nt sure whether i wanna do that nw.. sIgh...

i wAs asking her if she wans to visit mi when she is better. she was tellin mi that weekday she got to study so cannot come.. will b busy.. fine... i take it.. but wat abt weekend?? u wanna come over and find mi?? tHe answer was.. "sEe how ba.. still far.."i realli dunno wat place am i in her heart.. How come everyday she will be telling mi over and over something that had already passed.. and talked thru.. i reali dunno what is she thinkin.. i tot she can forgive and forget about things easily.. but sadly, its in contrary.... i tried to talk nicely to her.. but all was in vain.. she neither wanna tell mi y is she still so angry or y her tone talkin to mi is so impatient.. i realli realli dunno.. i was talkin to her half way thru, she can tell mi to wait and start to play her console game while talkin to mi... i continued my chatting with her.. but all she reply was," so wat can i do.. wat to do..." it realli makes mi think am i someone so not impt to her that she can play and talk to mi at the same time... i jus felt very dejected and hopeless. even askin her over for dinner, she would prefer nt to come if there is an option....

y Am i having such a problem... aren't we tryin our best to understand one another and give in to each others? tEll each other how we are feeling? nt to hide anything... but iT seems like its not happen the way we had dictated when we first met.. i dun feel her loving mi as much as last time le... very much i would like to know all these are jus a dream and nv will happen.. we can live happily eva after... aM i juS to naive aBt wat our relationship realli is?? or i jus dun wanna accept all the happenin? i pray that her luv for mi is still as much as last time and we dun argue over wat our parents says... i pray for that..

i hope fOr a beTter tml..