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tIme realli fLies... its already April.. we haf been together for 4 mths plus le... and wE had a 2nd accident.. this time was worse for mi.... i had to gO thru 2 operations on my right leg due to the fracture and muscle tear... bUt it is after the accident.. i felt everything around mi is changing.. how she treats mi.. hOw she talk to mi, how she reply mi.. hmm somehow or rather is very different from last time when we first met.. She doesn't seems to be concern over my injuries and din even bother to ask mi abt it till i ask her y she nv ask abt my injuries progression...

i feLt like a lost sheep.. i reAlli dunno y our relationship has become somehow one-sided.. i felt she doesn't care abt mi as much as how she used to be.. probably is due to the fact that she is hafing some kinda depression or wat.. but she doesn't talk to mi as if i'm like the boyfren.. i felt she is talkin to mi more like an impatient person who wanna go do her stuff and jus skim thru the conversation with mi... I try my best nt to think in such a manner, but as always when i talk to her she felt impatient and most of the time is single word reply..

fOr the past 1 plus weeks i haf been talkin to myself.. am i thinkin too much into it.. or is she always like that.. but i dunno is it my own mindset or my own thoughts that she prefer to talk to her family rather then to mi.. always on the phone.. she seems to talk to her family in a much better tone then with mi.. as if i'm boring her with a lenghty and useless converstion.. tryin to put down the phone ASAP so hat she can go do her own stuff.. Watch tv rather then talkin to mi.. i realli felt vex abt this relationship... first time in my life i had encounter this... i realli luv her and want to perservere thru to see our future.. but now it seems to mi as very cloudy and stormy... Not like what we used to have.. clear and sunshine relationship.....

iS god punishing mi for having an unbalanced yolk... i hope its nt... i hope to bring her to salvation.. to god i pray in mighty jesus name.... :>