aM I tOo tIrEd?? Rest Please...

Its a 17th May, 4.40am mornin. Me, a simple guy sitting in front of the laptop. typing down how i feel at this point...

2 weeks of intense programming, non-stop workin in lab, doin wat i can to finish the proj, yet... no recognition was sae upon nor a word of compliment... Wat was back in exchange was hmm so and so is the best and he is the best.. Felt so hurt.. yet nothing i can do.. helpless is all i can find to describe myself... Time is passing fast this semester.. i tot that the relationship with my team-mates will b better then last sem.. but it seems otherwise.. i guess i am drifting further and further away from the team... They dun seems to b tokin to mi alot and they rather play their NDS with one another. Sometime when i took out my PSP to play, they will sae why are u not doin ur work.. still playin away.. all of us are like so buzy doin the proj and u are playin... Then when i keep it and start doin work, i saw them playin away with their console with one another and happily smiling away with enjoyment..

In lab, i usu dun sit with them cos there are no place ard. then haiz.. i jus felt that i'm being left out by the grp... alone, by myself... Even when they are talkin abt the dinne that they are gonna haf after the presentation, they ask one of my fren in lab : " hey wanna go for dinner in City?" He replied " so whose goin?" My teammate reply:" MOST of Group D will b goin.. " i dunno whether is i think too much or they mean the most is excluding mi... i Realli dunno.. i hope that i am wrong... and ya... sIghz....

i jus hope to see a nice and cohesive team jus like wat i had back in Singapore, when i had my Vacation Attachment..

sigHz... Grace is guess is the onli person that is realli nice to mi sometime.. Someone tt i realli wan to talk to.. When i feel sad or down... when i tok to her, even she do not know how i felt at that moment, she complains to mi abt how much stress she is having and so on so on.... i jus comfort her and rest assure her that everything will turn out fine.. as i encourage her.. i felt tt i am also encouraging myself in the situation that i am in.. how? how?? how??? then will i be able to mix with them... this semester i felt so stranger to almost everyone that i come across... i realli realli felt soooo bad.. I cannot feel the warmth that i used to felt.. onli coldness, complaints, comments...

Am i imagining so much stuff myself? am i jus being paranoid? or am i jus missin my family in Singapore? wAt can i do???


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