My MumMy is Cute...

SomEtime i realli think.. is my mum realli 47 mahz... Is she realli that old.. Apart from the whitish colour hair.. she dun seems to be of this age.. So cheerful, so carefree.. so loving to the family, esp my little sis..

I miss her most of the time.. but i dun call home to tok to her often.. i guess i'm jus afraid that she might burst into tears when i wanna hang up the phone.. she will say " Bye Bye.. Bee bee.. okie.. Must call mi when u free again.. Mummy miss u alot.." Todae i called back home..

She din know it was mi.. i told her.. "Harloe.. its mi lahz... call back to see if u are okie anot.." then she was sooooo happy.. i was happy in my heart when i know she was delighted when i call back.. i know i make the rite choice.. but She is so caring for mi tt some time i jus take it for granted.. Took it that it is a must to treat mi well... Nv haf i treated her so well.. mummY waS always there for mi when things are not riTe.. She is always there for mi when i needed her... i luv her but yet i take her for granted..

Sometime when i am in a bad mood.. i will throw my temper.. then i jus speak to her loudly.. and as if she has done somethingy wrong... its not rite.. its noT wat a good son will do to hiS mum.. i jus felt sooo bad abt it i always regret and repent.. Telling myself not to do tt again to her.. she is my mummy.. She always tell mi "This lifetime we haf the fate to b mother and son.. Only this lifetime.. Next lifetime we might not haf the chance anymore le.." i always tot abt it in my heart.. knowing tt.. i will be tearing like shit.. cos i love her and i treated her badly.. Wat a son i am... Sighzz....

Todae when i called back.. Guess wat.. i ended tellin her off cos she forgot to draw out the money from the bank.. It was so wrong.. then i wanted to put the phone down.. cos i was angry.. She said this "i miss u soooo dearly and hoping u will b callin back.. waited for few weeks le... cos u sae ya phone wasn't ready.. so i dun wanna u to call back.. Now call back le and i jus wanna talk to u and see if u are ok.. u talk to mi like tt... U dun love mummy rite.. Ok lahz... put down the phone lahz... "

This moment hit mi hard in my heart... she Cried.. i heard it on the phone.. I felt sooo utterly bad in my heart.. something jus pierced thru my heart.. and awaken mi.. i was wrong.. utterly, deep-shit wrong to talk to her like tt.. she is my mumMy.. my Onli mummY in this world Tt i lived in now... I immediately console her.. and speak to her in repentance.. we chatted for sometime and i chatted with her on cam..

Saw her on the cam.. she seems to haf more white hair then last time... i was worried and she said her back was hurting due to workin long hours.. i felt more heartaches then i ever had.. Jus hope tt she is ok and alrite.. i guesS i am a bad son... i neEd to realli reflect myself in this area..

I love her cos she is the onli mother tt i will ever had in this lifetime.. No second chance for this... "Its only fate tt brings mi and u to become mother and Son this lifetime.. neXt lifetime we might not even know each other.." so i here i do apologise to my mummy for wat i have done.. i will try to change for the better.. but i love u more then anything, miss u more than the capacity of the universe. Cos ya my onli mummy...